I realized that as I have gotten older, I have become more and more of a coward. I find myself not willing take risks or believe for big things because I am afraid of the outcome, what it may cost, or the disappointment if I fail. I have easily justified it as being “responsible”, but when you cut through my crap I have been a straight coward.
A few months ago when I had this revelation of what I had become it really was hard, because ultimately I stopped trusting God and started playing it safe. I was trying to protect and not loose what He had blessed me with. The reality that hit me was that cowards have never changed the world, but bold courageous heroes have. I prayed and asked God to help me not to be a coward anymore. My name is Adrian Crawford and I am a recovering coward. Over the next few posts I will talk about what God has been teaching me through this process.
Tags: courage, culture, fear, leadership
Admitting a weakness ALWAYS takes courage Adrian, and humility. I admire you for your strength in stating your weakness out loud. I too have felt the same way. I try to remind myself that when I doubt, I am not trusting God – not placing my complete faith in Him.
I just wanted to say thank you for writing this.
Amie I am so glad that you stopped by my blog. I will be praying for you. Let me know if I can do anything for you.